For Malcolm and I it was more than losing a baby, it was losing the title of Mummy and Daddy, losing parenthood, even the right to be called a family. This was our first child. We do not know if we will have other children, especially in the light of our history. This simply has to be up to God. The heartache comes and goes. The rollercoaster rumbles on. Desperations can set in along with despair, but surely the key to managing all that this situation throws at us is to look at the one who ‘lifts